changed

     Goodbye to I.

     It is the last career move in a million years that I never thought I’d find myself doing. My artist life is something that a lot of my friends admire and fell in love with - the mystery, the drama, and the angst. But hey, it’s all to keep the opera rolling along while I indulge myself in my craft.

     Then someone stop the music, literally.

     Without an aria to deliver my creative tension, I am like a dinghy floating without a sail. Art making suddenly feels like a joke and I couldn’t even come up with a punch line. It’s like clinging on to reality that’s not really even there. You’re on a stage building your audience but the curtain is going down and then you hear a whisper saying. “Keep on”. Change your thoughts and you change the world.

     Sometimes we cannot leave our comfort zone until we know the reason why we should and we can’t always be wherever we want to be either so for now I think the best way to survive is to go on and keep creating, a painting, a drawing, or maybe even plant a seed in a pot. It doesn’t matter what you do but you just have to keep on going so you can prove to yourself and to other people that they didn’t get into you and you’re still around - to create something beautiful and be able to create something a little bit more.

seduced

     I know I have it but I never really knew what it is, what that thing is? But I just let it happen, that stuff in my head that makes me creative, makes me see things, and dream of images that are actually going on in another person’s life; the way they think, the way they daydream.

     I feel very fortunate to have a part of my day spending a visual life. Even if it takes an extra amount of time to paint and work on a canvas. It’s not an easy task, you have to fall in love with it and let yourself be seduced a little bit everyday. It’s not just talent exclusive to a chosen few because it’s more of a job but the real joy of it all is having half a day engaged in a world totally different from what is real. It’s another way out from being part of the mundane because it allows you to see more and enjoy that moment of creation. But I’m not special; I don’t dream a thousand images. I only see two or three and that makes it easier for me to paint. My limited imagination is a big plus and it helps me refine, transform and express what little I knew and surface with a better work of art. Because like any creative person out there, we all go to school, we get lost out there, bombarded and feed with different things and as we grow older and better, all these things get narrow and narrow.

     So if you want to create a work of art, you don’t have to have all the other stuff. You approach it in the simplest way you can. So you do not make it so passionate enough and just express that moment enough for it to come out - beautiful.